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I know I'm a bad person. I know I'm cold, cruel and whatever else you want to call me. I know I did wrong and I know I hurt you and I am sorry for that. But hey, at least you know a fraction of the pain you've caused and are still causing me. So don't start with me, don't bring up everything I'm trying so hard to bury. You'll thank me for leaving your life one day because you'll be able to see all my flaws and be happy about being rid of them. And the differences between us as you call them are a load of crap because differences do not influence choices. You chose to do what you did and I chose to do what I did. I don't want you dead, and I'm offended that you would think I would ever want that of anyone. Shows how well you know me I suppose. To be honest I'm really hurt by everything you wrote but who cares right, just another wound you're giving me. And I'm offended on my friends behalf because they have never done anything even remotely as bad as what you did to me. None of them have betrayed me, or broken me like you have. It's not my fault I can't trust you, it's yours because of what you chose to do. I'm glad you're being strong about this, I'm glad you have people in your life you love and who love you back because even if I don't want to be a part of it, I still want a good life for you. Don't blame good fortunes or whatever for this, did you ever think that maybe I still hate myself after what happened? Because I still blame myself. I can't have been that good a friend (not even girlfriend, just a friend) if you could hurt me that badly. I think getting with you was one of the biggest mistakes I've ever made because it ruined everything when you cheated on me. You knew how much that would hurt me, I told you so many times that that would be the one thing that I would never be able to get past but yet you did it anyway. You promised me you wouldn't as well, you lied to my face about it when you came to Scotland and promised me again you'd never do that but you already had. And that makes you much worse than the person that hurt me the first time round and you know who I'm talking about. He never promised me anything so I had no right to expect anything. He was never my supposed best friend so what he did was superficial compared to what you did.

And if you get so upset by the lyrics on my page then don't look because I never asked you to. And btw I'd like you to post my tops and shorts back, but you can keep w.e stuff I gave you.