12 July

Ah today's been really relaxing actually, I think that's what Sundays were invented for =P. Got up pretty late for me, about half ten, then did fuck all in my pyjamas until one, ah good stuff =D. Basically did fuck all the rest of the day, apart from walking to the Co-op to get Cosmopolitan xD lmao love that magazine. Spent a bit of time before dinner talking to my mum and dad about films and books and music, was actually quite...fun? Lmao parents and fun are not generally concepts that mix well together but it was awesome talking about stuff with them, especially with my dad cos, I dunno, we kinda think the same way about a lot of stuff, and it's not even like we have the same opinions but almost like we actually have the same sort of thought processes to get to those opinions. Makes me wonder if it's genetic or something to be learned, nature versus nurture. That kind of stuff absolutely fascinates me, psychology and genetics and the workings of the human brain. I'm sure I've mentioned an interest in all this stuff before but ya know, I'm quite repetative :P. You know what's amazing? Humans and apes share 98% of the same genetic information, yet we cannot cross breed with them. However, this is less astounding when you take into consideration that we have 50% of the same genetic information as bananas =P that 2% makes a whole lot of difference xD. Feeling really mellow today, in the mood for a good banter with anyone, lol. Hence the talking to my parents xD.

But today has been really good on other fronts as well. Had a bit of an epiphany this afternoon, concerning how I look and stuff. I kinda figured that as long as I'm a good person, as long as I'm kind and have my friends and my family and I'm healthy and stuff, why should I mind so much that I'm not the best looking girl in the world? Why should it bother me that I'm a bit chubby and not very pretty, if I have people that I love and reasons to live? So, I've decided I'm going to try and not let it bother me from now on. I mean, sure, I don't think I'm at the stage where I'll be able to agree with compliments about how I look when someone gives them to me, but I think that I'm comfortable enough to not argue about it, cos I know it can annoy people when I do that. So I'll just be saying thanks if someone says I look good or something (: I'm really hoping this feeling lasts because I'm tired of hating what I see in the mirror and I'm tired of letting it depress me. Turning a new page, fingers crossed, a more confident page :)

Anyways, enough for now. Byeee!