Ah today's been really relaxing actually, I think that's what Sundays were invented for =P. Got up pretty late for me, about half ten, then did fuck all in my pyjamas until one, ah good stuff =D. Basically did fuck all the rest of the day, apart from walking to the Co-op to get Cosmopolitan xD lmao love that magazine. Spent a bit of time before dinner talking to my mum and dad about films and books and music, was actually quite...fun? Lmao parents and fun are not generally concepts that mix well together but it was awesome talking about stuff with them, especially with my dad cos, I dunno, we kinda think the same way about a lot of stuff, and it's not even like we have the same opinions but almost like we actually have the same sort of thought processes to get to those opinions. Makes me wonder if it's genetic or something to be learned, nature versus nurture. That kind of stuff absolutely fascinates me, psychology and genetics and the workings of the human brain. I'm sure I've mentioned an interest in all this stuff before but ya know, I'm quite repetative :P. You know what's amazing? Humans and apes share 98% of the same genetic information, yet we cannot cross breed with them. However, this is less astounding when you take into consideration that we have 50% of the same genetic information as bananas =P that 2% makes a whole lot of difference xD. Feeling really mellow today, in the mood for a good banter with anyone, lol. Hence the talking to my parents xD.
But today has been really good on other fronts as well. Had a bit of an epiphany this afternoon, concerning how I look and stuff. I kinda figured that as long as I'm a good person, as long as I'm kind and have my friends and my family and I'm healthy and stuff, why should I mind so much that I'm not the best looking girl in the world? Why should it bother me that I'm a bit chubby and not very pretty, if I have people that I love and reasons to live? So, I've decided I'm going to try and not let it bother me from now on. I mean, sure, I don't think I'm at the stage where I'll be able to agree with compliments about how I look when someone gives them to me, but I think that I'm comfortable enough to not argue about it, cos I know it can annoy people when I do that. So I'll just be saying thanks if someone says I look good or something (: I'm really hoping this feeling lasts because I'm tired of hating what I see in the mirror and I'm tired of letting it depress me. Turning a new page, fingers crossed, a more confident page :)
Anyways, enough for now. Byeee!
Sunday, 12 July 2009
Friday, 10 July 2009
10 July
Ha not written in a while again, so I thought I'd better cos it'd be hypocritical if I didn't cos I just told Antonio that he hasn't in ages xD lmao =P.
Ah dear, didn't get to sleep until 4 again last night, so I was basically fucking about on the computer and being bored, lmao. Was woken up cos my friend Graham called me when I was asleep, again! He has a talent for doing that when I haven't slept well the night before as well, grrr. Ah well, I'm in a really good mood today, have been for a few days actually, so I don't really mind :).
When I came downstairs I must have looked like death warmed up, lol. Made toasted cheese and sweet tea which perked me up =D. Came on the laptop (obv. xD) and was talking to my lovely Antonio for a wee bit before he went to football training =P. He's proper into sport, which, of course, perplexes me xD the only sport I will willingly do is swimming, cos it's amazing xD Don't go that much though cos my hair dye would run in the pool, lmfao. OMG only 8 days until I see him <333 I'm getting so excited, and that's probably why my mood has been so good recently :) My mum and dad have ALREADY started taking the piss though, grrr. Lmao so so so worth it :) I'm nervous about seeing him too though, I'm terrified he won't like me in person, lol. Or that he won't find me attractive, which is probably more likely, lol. Fingers crossed my incredible wit, charm and charisma will come across when I first see him, haha xDD (was being sarcastic there btw, it's difficult to tell on a blog xD). Still majorly looking forward to it, it makes me so happy thinking about seeing him (: <3
Muhahahahaha ginger beer rocks my invisible socks XDD.
Ah dear, didn't get to sleep until 4 again last night, so I was basically fucking about on the computer and being bored, lmao. Was woken up cos my friend Graham called me when I was asleep, again! He has a talent for doing that when I haven't slept well the night before as well, grrr. Ah well, I'm in a really good mood today, have been for a few days actually, so I don't really mind :).
When I came downstairs I must have looked like death warmed up, lol. Made toasted cheese and sweet tea which perked me up =D. Came on the laptop (obv. xD) and was talking to my lovely Antonio for a wee bit before he went to football training =P. He's proper into sport, which, of course, perplexes me xD the only sport I will willingly do is swimming, cos it's amazing xD Don't go that much though cos my hair dye would run in the pool, lmfao. OMG only 8 days until I see him <333 I'm getting so excited, and that's probably why my mood has been so good recently :) My mum and dad have ALREADY started taking the piss though, grrr. Lmao so so so worth it :) I'm nervous about seeing him too though, I'm terrified he won't like me in person, lol. Or that he won't find me attractive, which is probably more likely, lol. Fingers crossed my incredible wit, charm and charisma will come across when I first see him, haha xDD (was being sarcastic there btw, it's difficult to tell on a blog xD). Still majorly looking forward to it, it makes me so happy thinking about seeing him (: <3
Muhahahahaha ginger beer rocks my invisible socks XDD.
Sunday, 5 July 2009
05 July
Well it's technically the 6th of July but shh =P.
Ah dear, feel bad again, not written to my blog in a wee while. To be fair, I haven't really been doing anything worthy of bloggery (lmfao I love that word xD) but still, seeing as I've been doing fuck all it seems unexcusable to not have written :P. Today was pretty good, started off with a hunt for my missing dog, who, incedentaly, I found almost as soon as I walked out the front gate (in my pyjamas might I add). Lol. Woke up pretty late for me, half 11 I think. I know, I'm a disgrace to the teenage identity :P. Stayed in my pyjamas until about half six, then I went round to Ashleigh's for a bit, was good, we were playing Brokencyde in her back garden xD. Came home and watched Love Actually (it is one of my favourite films ever btw) and was on the phone to Antonio for a good hour, on my house phone actually so it might not be a good scene when my parents get the bill. Ah well, I'll blame it on Scout, or Fraser XD. Haha he walked in steaming, quite funny as he had to get up in six hours :P he'll probably still be drunk by the time he gets to work, not good seeing as he has a job in a hospital. Ah dear, that boy really is something. Lmfao.
Don't think I'll sleep tonight tbh, not tired and I feel like fucking about doing nothing for a few hours. Kinda like not sleeping at night sometimes, cos I can do all the silly little things that I never get round to in the day =D. I guess it wouldn't be so good if I had to get up for school tomorrow though =P ah god I LOVE the holidays xD.
Euch I may be seeing my ex soon =/ Games Saturday, of all days, lmao. Hopefully not, but if so I don't think I'll mind that much cos I shall have my Antonio with me :).
I wanna listen to muuuusic but, as everyone else in the house is asleep, I really shouldn't. Wait, headphones will cut out the noise problem xD yays ^-^.
Hehe not long until Antonio comes up :). I am still utterly undecided as to what I should wear to meet him. Hmmm. Fuck it, maybe I'll go in my pyjamas xD.
Nah, best not scare the poor boy =P.
Anyways, enough rambling cos I think this blog is pretty big, even for me xD I shall write soon, try not to miss me too much dear blogger =P.
Ah dear, feel bad again, not written to my blog in a wee while. To be fair, I haven't really been doing anything worthy of bloggery (lmfao I love that word xD) but still, seeing as I've been doing fuck all it seems unexcusable to not have written :P. Today was pretty good, started off with a hunt for my missing dog, who, incedentaly, I found almost as soon as I walked out the front gate (in my pyjamas might I add). Lol. Woke up pretty late for me, half 11 I think. I know, I'm a disgrace to the teenage identity :P. Stayed in my pyjamas until about half six, then I went round to Ashleigh's for a bit, was good, we were playing Brokencyde in her back garden xD. Came home and watched Love Actually (it is one of my favourite films ever btw) and was on the phone to Antonio for a good hour, on my house phone actually so it might not be a good scene when my parents get the bill. Ah well, I'll blame it on Scout, or Fraser XD. Haha he walked in steaming, quite funny as he had to get up in six hours :P he'll probably still be drunk by the time he gets to work, not good seeing as he has a job in a hospital. Ah dear, that boy really is something. Lmfao.
Don't think I'll sleep tonight tbh, not tired and I feel like fucking about doing nothing for a few hours. Kinda like not sleeping at night sometimes, cos I can do all the silly little things that I never get round to in the day =D. I guess it wouldn't be so good if I had to get up for school tomorrow though =P ah god I LOVE the holidays xD.
Euch I may be seeing my ex soon =/ Games Saturday, of all days, lmao. Hopefully not, but if so I don't think I'll mind that much cos I shall have my Antonio with me :).
I wanna listen to muuuusic but, as everyone else in the house is asleep, I really shouldn't. Wait, headphones will cut out the noise problem xD yays ^-^.
Hehe not long until Antonio comes up :). I am still utterly undecided as to what I should wear to meet him. Hmmm. Fuck it, maybe I'll go in my pyjamas xD.
Nah, best not scare the poor boy =P.
Anyways, enough rambling cos I think this blog is pretty big, even for me xD I shall write soon, try not to miss me too much dear blogger =P.
Thursday, 2 July 2009
02 July
Heey today was muchos better =D did fuck all really apart from sit in my room, reading, and trying not to melt in the heat, lol. Seriously, I'm dying! Supposed to be cooler tomorrow, but raining =/ I've got to get out of the house tomorrow though, I've been feeling like a right hermit, lmao. Ah dear, a short blog because I didn't do anything at all, lmao.
Aaah 16 days until until until Antonio comes up =D can't fucking wait, the time is going sooooooooo slowly, lol. God damn time, one of these days I'm gonna get it. LOL. xDD
Aaah 16 days until until until Antonio comes up =D can't fucking wait, the time is going sooooooooo slowly, lol. God damn time, one of these days I'm gonna get it. LOL. xDD
Wednesday, 1 July 2009
01 July
Yesterday was pretty shit tbh. It started off okay, and in the afternoon I went and saw my friend Leigh and her new baby in Gala for a few hours. He's called Thomas and he's adorable (: but that visit itself brought me to question someone I have known for my whole life, and, I dunno, I hate to think of them the way that I'm starting to now. *shrug* ah well, it was good to see Leigh again anyways.
When I got home though, I got some really bad news. My friend Emilee was involved in a really bad car accident, and apparently it was amazing that she got out alive ='(. She's broken her collarbone, actually snapped it, fractured her skull massively, top of her head to the bottom of her ear, and she's broken some fingers and some ribs. But there's no permanent damage, thankgod. I was okay for about half an hour after hearing it, but then when I was telling someone what had happened I just broke down. Feel stupid now tbh, cos she's going to be fine and make a good recovery. Just, dunno, I hated to think of her getting hurt like that, imagining her lying in a hospital bed with a neck brace and bandages everywhere...mum says we'll go and see her when she's out of hospital, cos the morphine is making her not like herself =/ another thing which scares me.
Today feels like it's going to be shit as well. Just don't feel too happy this morning =/
When I got home though, I got some really bad news. My friend Emilee was involved in a really bad car accident, and apparently it was amazing that she got out alive ='(. She's broken her collarbone, actually snapped it, fractured her skull massively, top of her head to the bottom of her ear, and she's broken some fingers and some ribs. But there's no permanent damage, thankgod. I was okay for about half an hour after hearing it, but then when I was telling someone what had happened I just broke down. Feel stupid now tbh, cos she's going to be fine and make a good recovery. Just, dunno, I hated to think of her getting hurt like that, imagining her lying in a hospital bed with a neck brace and bandages everywhere...mum says we'll go and see her when she's out of hospital, cos the morphine is making her not like herself =/ another thing which scares me.
Today feels like it's going to be shit as well. Just don't feel too happy this morning =/
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